Who am I?

About Emily

I am Emily, an explorer of both the outside world

and the world within me. I live with my cat Lucifer in the Jordaan area of Amsterdam. A place that sounds wonderful and which it is; it breathes vibrancy, has character. But I'm also really a nature person, so every year I think about moving again. Sometimes I do; I've lived in Dubai and Spain, for example. Or I travel the world, to enjoy the overwhelming nature out there or discover new cultures.

And dis-covering the world within myself? That's also something I've been working on for a long time, and maybe you recognize it. Every time you think you're there, something new pops up. And that's not surprising, behaviors and patterns are often deeply rooted, just like the trauma of yourself or generations before you that have unconsciously passed it on.

How I look at life

Sparkling dots, wondering and taking ownership

I have a zest for life, to face everything I encounter and discover or create points of light. Like everyone else, I know more difficult periods in my life. My childhood was not so carefree, so I had to be an adult at a very young age. And when I started working I suffered burnout after a few years and again about 10 years later. But I always try to keep seeing the beautiful and positive things in life, the bright spots and possibilities. And I'm curious about what something is trying to tell me. I know that I, as an adult, am the only one who can change things: how I deal with something, how I look at myself, how I live my life.... . I believe that we are all the director of our own lives.

I can relate to insecurity, rejection or transgressive behavior. Not feeling heard or seen. Or being loved and mattering. Having physically and emotionally absent people in your life. But what I prefer to do is let you experience how all those feelings and experiences do not define you. That you can choose to walk a different path. To bring you back to your own essence and take (back) control of your own life; to reconnect your head and heart, together with the horses. To see the play of light and dark. Because in that combination something happens: depth comes, purpose arises. The points of light then shine even brighter. Like with rain and sun you get a rainbow: it's magic!

And that's the magic I like.

I still dream about

A nice place in a sunny country where I can live and work. If you know something, let me know!
Or just a nice place somewhere in nature in NL, that makes me happy too.
Even more animals around me, I have a very sweet one now 🐈 and that just fits in my small apartment. But if I had a bigger place, I would so take care of all the animals that need it.
Seeing the Northern Lights
Writing a book
Being a speaker at big events to inspire others
Having my own pick-your-own vegetable garden, with a small cafe where I can then also offer my homemade gluten-free baked goods.

A projector? Me? No that's not possible

I remember it clearly. I had a wonderful international job with a large corporate, high speed, long days, traveling for work, it couldn't be crazy enough for me. And suddenly Human Design came my way, and I wanted to know more about it because then I would get to know myself even better. I calculated my chart and saw that I was a projector. The type that has to wait for the invitation, has no constant energy, an investigator because of the 1 in my profile, etc. I thought it was a mistake and wasn't quite sure about my birth time either. So I put it away. It will come my way again several times in 2021. And yes I believe in messages from the universe, so I started looking into it anyway. In retrospect I think 'why didn't I do that sooner?'

Finally the pennies fell. I always noticed what could be improved (channel 18-58) or the true potential/soul of someone (completely open identity), but often the company or the other person was not ready to hear it. I always asked the why question as a child and was also a dare devil, still I am of trying and experimenting (1 / 3 profile). This makes me naturally curious and inquisitive. I also found out that I am a restless soul and am here on earth to gain from experiences and then inspire or guide others in this.

I was very good at making choices during an emotional high -I am often mega excited about things- and then thinking "what did I say yes to?". Well, that emotional authority is for real. Now that I understand it better and better, I can play with it and be with what I feel. But before that, I often pushed it away until it erupted like a volcano.

Another reason I didn't recognize myself in the projector at first. I am an energy projector (3 motors) and have 2 pressure centers (head and root), so more energy does flow through me than for a projector without motors. I just had to learn how to harness that energy properly. Oh well, and I have an undefined throat and for years my theme was "not being heard," I felt that sometimes I had to say things to be seen. So I would do that and then it didn't come across at all. Or a colleague would say the exact same thing and suddenly people would listen. So often I didn't feel seen or acknowledged and I really noticed the bitterness attached to that. Fortunately, by understanding my Human Design better, I have now found my way around that.

Offering

Background

How I gained my knowledge and experience

Even as I child, I couldn't choose what I wanted to study.

I liked so many things and still do actually. Eventually I made a choice with my head. I needed to study something that you could actually get a job in so I wouldn't have to worry about money in the future, something that had a big role in my childhood. I decided to study Applied Communication Sciences, but found out after a year that that wasn't my thing after all, far too impersonal and it didn't have as much to do with people and human behavior at all as I hoped. I then went on to study Sociology and did another Master in Business Administration, because I knew for sure that I wanted to go into business. I had the opportunity to work for wonderful companies in the Netherlands and abroad in the field of Learning & Development, leadership, coaching, team development, DE&I and culture. I love to keep developing myself, when I became self-employed I decided to also do more body-oriented work so I took a number of courses / trainings in Pilates, Yin Yoga, Transformational Cupping and Access Bars. I have also completed a systemic shamanic horse coaching training, a deepening in child horse coaching and ACT with horses, and various Human Design trainings.